my god.

i'm at library.

and something just happened... so fuckingly irritating.

my dad called me 3 times.

of cos i rejected.

den i went to off my phone COS HE'S PERSISTENT.

and in the afternoon, guess wad.

some social worker came and talked to me.

wtfffff

idiot.

go call my sisters la.

i swear i treat my dad better than my sisters can.

I'M JUST AT THE FUCKING LIBRARY SO I CANT TALK!!!!!!!!!!!

bang bang you're dead.


Nicholas gave a loud fart

on Saturday, May 31, 2008; 6:33 PM

Girls: WHERE HAVE ALL THE GOOD GUYS DIED TO?

Nicholas : there are so many around u. open ur eyes and see.

i hate it when this phrase pops up on tv drama.

its so anti-man.

hey i admit i'm a nice guy, and i'm not dead. zZZz


Nicholas gave a loud fart

on ; 10:56 AM

If time can reverse,

mayb i should nvr have created this blog,

and chase her away.

mayb if she stayed for a while,

we could have sparked a miracle,

and salvage this relationship.

maybe...

I miss the girl,

who made me a wonderful album of all our memories.

who made me countless of heavenly cheesecakes.

who told me never to give up on myself in all my school work.

who shared her secrets with me.

and accompanied me on the beach.

on that starry starry night.

who made me felt true love.

but i've lost her.

and quitting is for losers.

i'll find her back.

one day...


Nicholas gave a loud fart

on ; 8:17 AM

hahas.

today was crap. just wasted 6 hrs of my life in school with make up lessons.

and omg ate swenson cookie summit!!!

buy 1 get 1 free ma.

now at bk mugging with frens.

haiz.

I cant believe i'm saying this,

i'm still thinking about u.

I miss qing hui,

the one I used to know.

WHERE ARE U?!


Nicholas gave a loud fart

on Friday, May 30, 2008; 7:28 PM

I guess...
You can call it payback time.
Retribution, bao ying.
yea. you get it.

Remembered the time when I was sec 1... after I changed when I entered Dunman High. Didnt we fall apart as well. nope. that time wasnt you. It was me. I think you're still the sweet ole girl now. Surprisingly, I felt nothing for our 4 years relationship... All I cared was my future, the new girls i'll meet, the new frens I will make. I guess it was just another phase of my teenage life.

Right now, the role is reversed... Sadly.
People change don't they?
I guess we were born to please others around us, not please ourselves.
Or mayb i'm wrong to say that.
Some please themselves more than they wanna please others.

I swear with my whole heart, I tot I knew how to make a relationship work.
From watching all the stupid korean dramas, hearing my kakis talk about their ideal guys, reading nicholas sparks and nora robert books and the many quite similar self-help books.
I tot I knew.

Yes, i'm bhb. I told my frens everything when they asked me about us. I told them what I did for you. And I took comfort when the girls say they wished their guys were as sensitive as me. Some told me not to be too nice, cos girls may just take it for granted. I nvr believed that shit, girls are to be pampered. but wadeva. i'm just a Mr.Nice, who's just not that nice enough to touch her fickle, unbounded heart.

From attending all her concerts to running to her house every week to give a sweet lovey dovey letter. yes, fresh with my sweat. yes people. This is the shit I do. and i dun mind doing every week of my life for the girl I love. be amazed. perhaps i've done so many incredible stuff for her, it is no longer a qns of how much the stuff I do for her which will touch her, its how much more incredible the stuff I have to keep on planning.

AND I STRONGLY DISAGREE THAT SINGAPOREAN GUYS ARE UNROMANTIC. I SURE FUCKING KNOW I AM NOT. even kenny's not. He's such a sweet guy for thinking romantic ideas. ok I heard this stupid auntie giving her comments on some chinese radio channel, so i'm rebutting.

From taking the initiative to make opportunities to meet her with her tight schedule and mine to missing out my outings with frens just for her.

and buying that cardigan for her, which is like 1/4 of my allowance, without thinking cos i know she likes it.

yes i'm poor, my allowance is only 120 dollars a month can u fucking believe it.
my mom supports 3 children, and yea. i'm not complaining.

one day, i'm gonna earn so much, I'll make sure I do. For mom's sake.

so yea.
I shouldnt have believed in that never-ending love we talked about.
relationship... are we too immatured for it? I mean, people tahan overseas relationship.
mayb distance is just an excuse.
You dun love me anymore.

Vjc...
fuck u seriously.
u broke 3 couples up oreadi.
and mayb counting.

argh wadeva.
girls.
you said u understood how I really love you.
aww.
when was the last time I felt I had to say that.

its saddening...
I wonder...
why do people change so fast.
why cant ur last change be when I came into your life.
its just not fair.

i'm sure i'm one of the nice boys out there already :(
at least I dun sms my girl tcdz LOL
or niao about gifts.
I tot we had it going.

mayb one day, you'll truely understand, you just missed a guy who will take a bullet for you.
I hate to say this.
over and over.
just be happy with your life dear.
i'll be fine.
though I feel like leaping out of the window right in front of me right now.

after giving so much for this relationship, will I ever heal completely and give my best for the next?
only time will tell...

and by ending this post, I sealed my fate, becos I know after u read this, you'll probably hate me.
wadeva.

Good night. darling.




Nicholas gave a loud fart

on ; 5:40 AM

badminton camp was kinda...

bland.
boring.
but free!

ahahah. so much food to eat =))

and so much $$ to claim wootz

the games were... not very fun.

and i hate ryan.

that little monster.

HE'S SO BLOODY CHILDISH!!!!!!!!!!!!

fucking hell gimme back my twistees!!!!


Nicholas gave a loud fart

on Wednesday, May 28, 2008; 2:25 PM

ah... a new blog =)
EMO!!!

heh.
Am I Pissed with you?

no no no. I cant be.
I guess I have to constantly remind myself that this is just a simple relationship.

isnt it so?

wad do u know about pissing me off?


Nicholas gave a loud fart

on ; 9:23 AM